wahhhh it's been a long time i didn't update my blog!
guess i don't really have time to turn on my computer at home now :p

But since i really want to keep my memories, from now on i'll try to do micro blogging ^^

so, from now on, i'll update everything here

 

http://elijabeseu.tumblr.com/

 

and if i have time to do a long update, maybe it here at xanga :p

 

Okay....

so.... see you there!

mwah!

hi.. .............................

ah.. so.. what..
first, i seldom go online because if i go online, i will spend my time a lot for browsing. i like it but sometimes i really need to do something else, let's say watch movie. Ok, lately, i really want to watch sad sad saddddd movie! I don't know why, i just want. Anyway, yesterday i already cried when i watch a movie bought by namja chingu. A korean movie called "My mother is a mermaid". A sad movie but meaningful.

Last saturday , April 3rd, i went to Mangga Dua with namja chingu. We ate "es salju" and bought some dvds.
Then had dinner and went home. We also went to the park and talk a lot. I really really like listening to namja chingu.

Okay. And then... yesterday i went with Rika and at night went to Eric's birthday.
Today, i went to Venny's birthday.

Okay.. ah don't know. actually this is crazy. i can't really tell anyone how i feel, i mean i can.. but it is limited. i don't know what i am talking about. my fingers keep on typing while my mine is spinning around. sometimes when i see some people, ah don't know.. i can say nothing much coz everything is like secret...

when if there's anyone say something about yeah you know who, either i say it out or not, i feel insecure. for sure! even Molita feel the same way because she is in the same position. It is a very simple matter actually. But how... sometimes just can't keep this mind calm. it can think about weird stuff. i know that's not good. but don't know...
then, while in this insecure moment, i really wish...... but .. yeah.. actually if i want, actually i should say that i want. but sometimes i just can't say it out. my heart says want but i will just say it's okay. for sure people won't understand and can't guess because people is not a mastermind, right.. i knew it but i just did so. ah don't know why sometimes i am so stupid. i saw some people .. ah cut this out, i don't know what i am talking about. you have. i don't have. yours. i wish ..............

hello hello! how are you?
can't believe today is thursday already ^^

everyday goes well as usual.
yesterday i went to TA. was planning to play ice skating. but cancelled it. had dinner with namja chingu and talk.
we were looking at a girl who was eating alone. namja chingu can't eat alone, i mean he can... just he will eat fastly. :p
i think i always eat alone, but lately not anymore.. lol! but sometimes i still eat alone :p
i am happy to meet namja chingu, i feel grateful everytime (i can repeat this sentence again again and again :D)

hmm..

about other thing, everything is so mixed. there are some different things to do. sometimes i can get confused. basically, of course i will support everything. don't know... sometimes i feel like i just want to focus on arrgh i don't know what i am talking about. i want this one to be great.. but of course i want everything to be great as well and of course i want that one to be super great too......